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Amphetamine-based stimulants have destroyed my brain, and 10 months I don’t know what to do…
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In 2020, for ADHD, my doctor put me on Vyvanse (70 mg). Then we switched to Dexedrine (much stronger), and very quickly I was taking 90 mg daily for about two years (about 100 mg Adderral equivalent)

At the end, I was a complete wreck and barely functional…. My doctor had me staked on Wellbutrin, Abilify, and an SSRI on top of it.

I was also using crazy amounts of nicotine and caffeine (don’t ask me why- the stims made me do crazy stuff).

10 months post stimulants and I’m off it all, except 10 mg Lexapro and 600 Gabapentin.

I’m incredibly frustrated because my new team of doctors keep telling me it’ll get better, but my daily life I’m incredibly lethargic, unmotivated, and unable to focus…

I was never like this before stimulants.

My family just thinks it’s “in my head” and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to go back on them after getting this far but I feel like I’m permanently screwed and I can’t keep living this ridiculously unproductive and exhausted existence where ever taking a shower is hard. And it’s hard to enjoy anything…. No sex drive.

It’s not depression (mood feels flat but not down ), all bloodwork is normal…. It feels like I have no dopamine.

Only thing neurologist told me is that my dopamine system took a beating and I should feel better… maybe in 15 months.

I just feel like if it hasn’t gotten better by 10 months it never will. Feeling defeated and hopeless.

I was fine before stimulants. Biggest regret of my life was starting them.

Thanks for listening

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Yeah I’m really mad

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Really? Every time I stop taking it I get even more tired, and then feel depressed and sluggish.

Is that a temporary effect of going off? How do I get off this stuff without feeling worse?

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Them you so much. That is very reassuring. I am sure you can imagine my greatest fear is that I’ll be like this permanently…

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So I’ve probably got 6-8 months left?

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Thanks. Honestly, I’m afraid of messing things up lol so I’d just rather give it time.

I am doing Spravato (Ketamine) for depression relay to this, which increases neurogensis and BDNF. I think it’s working.

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Ugh. I’m at 10 months. Hope it gets better soon.

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Thanks. What’s your experience and how long until it started feeling better for you?

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Cut out booze, weed, nicotine.

No exercise, yet.

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I’m going to try to get off in a week.

Honestly, the w/d - if it’s even that- I get from not taking it is just feeling flat, extra sleepy, and a little restless. Nothing terrible. I think I am just extra sensitive to little changes right now.

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How much do you take?

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How do I find someone who will administer it?

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Which would you recommend?

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Never. I fucked up

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In other words, withdrawal is over exaggerated?

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Interesting…. For me it seems to give me a bit of a boost.

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How much were you on? The daily Dexedrine I was on was equivalent to like 270 mg of Vyvanse…. Very different than being on 50 mg short term of intermittently.

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Yeah. Felt good and just assumed more = better. Also rapidly became tolerant

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