Im 35M. I’ve done it all. (At least sexually). I would like to find a Hotwife. I’m naturally very dominant so I usually attract women who expect and want me to be dominant to them and often the case what feels like overperforming this role. I’ve just came to accept myself and the realization that that’s not what I really want. I’m for the most part perfoming it if I have to be honest. I want to breakthrough to this other side of me which feels even more natural. I dont want to lead sexually my woman anymore. I want to be the one whos lead, I want to let go that part of me so I can focus on other things more important to me in this point in time. I don’t find leading a woman / being dominant to a woman satisfying intellectually, emotionally or sexually anymore. Frankly, I find it boring. Sometimes, even to this day I’m banging my gf upside down, spanking her, fucking her brains out and I think to myself “gosh .. how boring” while she’s clearly having the time of her life… this doesn’t feel right… I don’t want to continue leading a life of deception to myself and to others so I want to CHANGE and what I believe is to ultimately accept myself and embrace all of my complexities as a human being.

How do I start? Where do I start? Do you have any advice in order to find the woman of my dreams? If you are an aspiring hotwife please get in touch. Needless to say Im financial very stable. I want somebody to lead me. It just feels right. I want to be on the back… AND I hope my post doesn’t get banned for “whatever reason” AGAIN… this is a post to seek support in understanding the depths and nuances of cuckolding. Thanks for your support