I am posting this here, because of my partners interest in me becoming a hotwife. He doesn’t see himself as a cuck but more of a stagg. He is also interested in couples swapping and many other things that are non-monogamous. I knew he had a lot of sexual experience when I met him, but I thought we built a certain amount of trust. We would tinker with ideas, and mostly fantasize. But He has gone out on his own and gotten with one time encounters that were strictly sex. I find myself angered, of course by this. But a part of me also feels sexually motivated. I’ve also catfished him in an effort to catch him and his lies or attempt to have sex. But I almost enjoy this. I feel like I am more upset that he went behind my back and lies about this shit than him actually doing it. I don’t understand this myself * how I feel this way. And he would love to share me, or for me to have my own experiences, or as a couple. He is wildly adventurous, and I’m more shy and cautious yet I don’t mind fantasizing about these things. We have a good relationship in every other way, and I don’t believe that either of us desire a relationship with anyone else. I’m not sure what I’m seeking posting this other than trying to understand how we move forward. He’s expressed a desire to stop cheating as he feels really bad afterwards and I’ve explain to him that I love him, but I don’t trust him which is an issue. I have explained he should include me in his quest or at least give me an opportunity to satisfy our needs together. My sex drive is not at his level, but it doesn’t mean I don’t have one. Any advice for an open minded woman that’s with a man like this? And I know and he knows cheating isn’t right, and that he may not change.