I am curious if husbands have felt the same way. My wife received a message from an old college acquaintance roughly a week ago. He reached out because he thought he saw her on an app. She confirmed that it was her on the app and now, they are regularly speaking. Let’s just say the sexual tension this week has been off the charts since we’ve been on hiatus.

I am beyond excited for her! The gentleman is tall (way taller than me), well built, and respectful. He is so much different than me and at times, I catch myself saying, “thats the one she should have married”, lol. He is relatively new to the lifestyle and is not comfortable yet in group settings.

My wife and I always play as a team but recently, I’ve been curious about her playing solo. I thought this could be the perfect scenario to try this since she’s already comfortable with him, being that she’s known him since college. My only rule was that the play session is recorded, which everyone agreed.

I’ve been living in sexual angst the past week with a roller coaster of emotions, excitement, nervousness, and jealously. I’ve been denying myself from reading their messages which probably lost a few years off my life but the feeling you get when your wife is engaging sexually with someone else other than you is unexplainably beautiful and sexy.

Last night, their conversation moved into exchanging x-rated photos (the best part, right!?). My wife sent a few heavy hitters and he responded with a disappointing dick pic. It’s lacking in overall size and girth, I could tell she was disappointed and I was bummed for her. I decided to read their conversation and learned what he did for a living…

Here comes the fucked up part, ready? The combination of what he does for work (which is not bad by any means) and his dick pic has completely turned my sexual angst off, it almost feels like there is no more competition. My rule that the play session needs to be recorded is no longer a priority anymore. Even though they have not played, I feel like an asshole for feeling this way. Has anyone felt or dealt with anything like this?