On the Hotel balcony at night on vacation. We had sex in the middle of the night. Later we realized that the janitor or waiter had been watching us the whole time. She liked it. At the next breakfast in the hotel she dressed up. I said what do the waiters think of you? She got very excited and said that I am a little slut. I said: do you think they jerk off ? She said: I hope so. I want to say that she likes being a little „slut“. Even if others are there or watching, she has no problem. She is not ashamed. But she doesn't think that she can have sex with the other men. She doesn't think that far.

I don't want to force her. I'll give her as much time as she needs. But I really want it. I will always want it. We've been together since school and now we are 33 and 36. I was her first and only man she had sex with.

I have to take it slowly. Before I tell her that I really want it, I have to prepare her mentally.

The first step was dirty talk about others. ✅ The second step was that we talk openly about it when we like someone we see. ✅ Another step is that someone is watching us having sex on balcony. ✅ Next step is the bar game (read my other post)