My boyfriend and I are in our late 20's and have been dating for 2 years.

At the beginning of the relationship he told me he had a hotwife and cuckold kink.. and that it was very important for him in a relationship. I didn't even know it existed but I said I would give it a try at some point.

I installed Tinder, sexted, sent nudes, and met up with one guy after a while but didn't do more than foreplay. He was happy obviously but it was not enough.. we started fighting about it every now and then and he ended up breaking up with me because he felt frustrated and he thinks I'm not "naughty enough" and that his kinks / having a naughty wife I very important for him. I told him for me our relationship, our bond and the love we share is definitely what matters the most..

He came back about a week after breaking up saying he needed me and wanted to be with me and he understands my concerns but he would be very happy if I do try it at some point.

Now about 2 months later he gave me an ultimatum to cuck him and then after a week we had a fight again about it and he asked me to show my body online I agreed to it but then he decided it was too late and not enough and that he wanted me to have anal sex with someone. I said I could try cucking him but I won't do anal. He then asked that instead of showing off on Chaturbate he wanted me to ask one of my guy friends to watch .. He added that I can't have my own conditions because he has been doing enough to show me his love over the past two years so know I have to show him that I truly want to be with him.

I know I was wrong for pursuing the relationship without being certain that I could do it, I was already falling in love and still intended to try. I like dressing sexy and showing off but I'm worried about std's (particularly HPV since I did not get the vaccine).

I believed he was a good guy, he's usually supportive and caring and he does so much for me. He says he doesn't want to be "that guy" who forces his gf so maybe we should just end things.. because he feels like he is forcing me.

Is he a good guy, is this all my fault ? I know I have my part of responsibility for sure but I don't know what's ok and what's not anymore. I'm just so desperate to save that relationship... I don't know what to do.

I know every woman here has experience in that area so I'd like opinions, I'm sorry if I'm a little bit off topic but I can't find any subreddit where I can post and I'm in desperate needs of advice.

To the mods : if you do delete this please tell me where I can post, I'm seriously so lost and can't find any community to post. Thank you.