So, as a recap for those who haven't seen my previous posts...

my wife and I have been together off and on since 2001, fwb, dating, etc... this final time we reconnected in 2006 and have been together ever since, having a child in 2008 and finally married in 2020...

During this time, our personal life has been nothing short of amazing, of course we fight, all couples do, but it was clear we were best friends and would be together forever... however.....

if you were to look at our bedroom life, you'd probably scratch your head and wonder why, we were pilar opposite... our sex life was so vanilla, sex once a week, twice if it was my birthday or Christmas on one of those other days... 1 position, absolutely no oral, lights out and "hurry up in have to work tomorrow" constantly....

Fast forward some time and about 10 months ago, I brought up my hotwife fantasy, which, not surprisingly, was met with a hard NO.... no problem, subject was dropped, but within a few weeks, I managed to incorporate it into our dirty talking and then into full on roleplay, with toys, etc.... she began to REALLY get into it and our sex life blossomed...

Sex 3-4 times a week, fun positions we hadn't done in years, oral sex at least once a week, lingerie, toys, videos and even porn which she frowned upon majorly before hand...

a few months ago, she needed help with her phone and one of the steps was in her phone history, while looking for that site, I noticed a TON of porn the past weeks prior, all about the hotwife and big dick lifestyles... husband's watching, cuckhold, etc... I didnt say anything of course, i didn't want her to lose her momentum...

finally, she admitted to actually considering it, it sounded like a lot of fun, I tried to keep my calm, but inside I was ecstatic!!! And she knew... roleplaying intensified and so did her porn watching, sometimes hours worth a day, I stopped bringing up hotwifing in our roleplaying, I didnt want to push and wanted her to initiate when she felt the need, and she did, 100% of the time, we would start foreplay and within 10 minutes she was talking about it, fantasizing about it, etc....

then it all stopped... she said she had considered it, decided it wasn't for her, which i was fine with, but my issue was that our sex life started going back to the way it was, excuses, hurry up, no oral, no "fun" it was "hurry up and get your rocks off so you're not grumpy"

It ended up coming to a boil the other day and a huge fight broke out... of course we made up, telling her its not about actually going through with it but our sex life was suffering and she had to recognize that the hotwife scenario is what enhanced it to begin with and even if she had no intention of going through with it, could she still consider it and fantasize about that (or anything for that matter) to bring things back around....

I spun the roleplaying around to her watching me with another woman, she got off really hard to the "story" being whispered in her ear that night, but said she would never share me... again, I'm fine with that, but the sex was amazing again at least...conversation has opened back up and yesterday, she actually asked to "join my Reddit account"... so, this is officially shared now... and she let me take some pics of her tits and post on some of the "rate my boob" sub reddits, which was WAY out of her character, like, that took me by total surprise, but here we are and she is thoroughly enjoying the attention and comments men are leaving her...

Now... where do we go? do you think she is heading in a hotwife direction? of course she still says no, but it feels like she is slowly opening up to it... the account is still on just my hone for now, but we started browsing it together last night and she chose where and what pics to post, I'm proud of her actually, this is way out of her comfort zone and I'm glad it's been positive so far....

I teased her about how far she's came and how she would be a hotwife before she knew it..m and she said no way it's ever happening, but I still think I'm right lol...