We have been playing in the lifestyle for more than a year. It initially started with me playing with bulls in the same room with my husband while he watched or participated. It has been incredibly fun for the both of us. We slowly ventured into me playing solo and sharing pics and videos with my husband and sharing details while he reclaimed me later. To be honest, solo play is not particularly better for me, but my husband loved it, so we incorporated it more and more into our lifestyle adventure.

I’ve met with some bulls who pushed some boundaries. Not boundaries of what we agreed with my husband but some mental blocks I had. My husband was elated to see me get dirtier and dirtier with the bulls. It had been a huge turn on for him. Until last weekend.

Since my husband loves surprises, generally I am the one communicating and planning with the bulls. My current bull asked if I would like to have a threesome with another male friend of his. I thought it was a great idea thinking my husband would love it. I was incredibly wrong.

He was disappointed and very sad when he realized what we had done while watching the video next morning. He lost his erection and couldn’t watch the rest of the video. I tried talking with him. I tried reassuring him, but he said he’s not ready to talk about it yet. He said he has to figure out his feelings about this first. I gave him space. I’m affectionate as much as he allows me, but he is distant and depressed. I don’t know how to fix this. I am ready to do anything. It doesn’t matter. If he wants to stop being in the lifestyle we can do it this instant. He is the most important thing in my life.

I’ve been thinking about what the problem could be for the last 3 days. I don’t know for sure because he doesn’t want to talk about it yet, but I think it’s because anything I did with the bulls before this was something that we have done to some extent between each other. We never had a threesome though.

I’m desperate for ideas on how to fix this. What should I say when he is ready to talk about it?