I have been very curious about this lifestyle for quite some time now.. I’ve been a lurker here on Reddit because it’s very endearing and inspiring to see all these happy and adventurous couples embracing their sexuality. Today, I finally had the guts to make a post speaking on my dilemma and inner turmoil so here goes nothing… I’ve been considering opening up to my fiancé about this fantasy I have which ultimately involves sharing her with someone else. I want to give her a metaphorical Hall Pass for her to sleep with whoever she wants.. (As long as I am present)

I fear she won’t receive this news very well and will get upset at the idea or might believe I have some ulterior motives… While I certainly feel a bit fearful, I have a feeling we can both benefit from this change if we decide to proceed forward.

Our relationship has been going strong for over 5 years. We are each other’s first serious relationship and we even swapped virginity’s. Our sex life is good and always passionate. Between the two of us, I’m more sexually driven and outgoing. She’s more reserved and can be a bit shy… Until she’s not.. ;)

While there’s currently no complaints in the bedroom, I can’t help but wonder if she desires more from me… Or perhaps maybe even more than me…

Some things to consider..

1. Her friends have teased her about having very little sexual experience and basically think it’s sad/funny that she’s only been with me.. She seems unbothered but I’ll never really know how she truly feels about that without asking…

2. Apparently my fiancé has a wild side? She’s opened up to me about a lot of things from her past… Which I find to be pretty hot and steamy. She had a short lived fling with someone prior to me but nothing serious outside of casual dating.. One day when we were watching TV, she refused to watch a certain movie with me and I didn’t understand why…I kept pestering her about it and she finally confessed it makes her think of her “ex” too much because she sucked his d!ck in the theater when they watched it.. She immediately felt ashamed and embarrassed and tried to brush it off and change the subject.. it was certainly shocking to hear because she’s never done anything like that to me and while I am a bit jealous it surprisingly turns me on thinking of her being so slutty and naughty.

Fiancé is not a big drinker but when she starts drinking heavier she certainly has her fun.. (especially when she drinks with her best friends) She gets a bit more adventurous and care free.. Once she confessed to me that she started making out with 2-3 of her best friends because they all got really drunk and wanted to practice kissing / experiment.. They’re surprisingly comfortable around each other. They’ve compared boobs and nipples and most recently have all been starting to read erotic novels… which I believe is reawakening something within my fiancé…

I’ve been slowly opening her horizons as well.. I bought her first dildo and she seems open to using it but she’s somewhat hesitant, I pretty much have to initiate playing with it or she won’t go for it.. I would like to incorporate using this more because watching her take a foreign dick that isn’t mine is outstandingly beautiful to me.. Her joy and pleasure is what truly gets me going and is pretty much the core reason for my desire to share her.. I feel like gifting her this newfound lifestyle would bring us so much closer. It’s a deep intimacy to me and as mind boggling as it might sound to her, one of my truest most ultimate fantasies that I someday hope we can navigate and experience together… Hopefully with no regrets and a deeper connection.. I know this is quite the leap from our current situation but in theory I could see this working.. Just trying to wrap my head around how I want to go about explaining my feelings..

Also would like to mention my fiancés friends seem unhappy or simply not content with their relationships/marriages and could possibly be sluts in denial or withdrawal… If we ever manage to see this hotwife lifestyle through, I hope we drive her friends mad with envy… although I really do wish they encourage her to at least consider my proposal for a guilt free cheating experience. Not really cheating if we’re exploring together or if I’m willingly sharing her right? I’ve kept these feelings hidden for the entirety of our relationship because it seemed like pure fantasy and virtually impossible.. I feel like my soon to be wife wouldn’t have even considered this in the past… but as time passes she slowly is deviating away from being so uptight and prude.. She used to call me perverted for always wanting to have sex or for simply even watching porn.. Look at her now, occasionally playing with a dildo and now she’s an avid reader of smutty literature. This feels like progress in the right direction and I have a hunch we can possibly take this further.

Can anyone in the lifestyle share their experience and maybe share some words of wisdom? I’m open to suggestions and willing to hear any and all advice.. whether it’s encouragement to proceed or even words discouraging me from advancing any further… Talk some sense into me.

We’re a couple in our late 20’s … I don’t want her having a midlife crisis regretting not doing more with her life… From what she’s told me she never really got to have a slutty phase.. I would absolutely love to be at her side allowing her to explore it.

Sorry for the long post!!!!! Thank you to anyone who made it this far :)