It's been a process, I tell you, for context, here is the back story

I (49M) brought the "Hotwife Lifestyle" up to my wife (50F) about 6 months ago now... it was met with a hard NO! As weeks went on, we began to roleplay a little and she enjoyed it once in a while, but usually when we incorporated toys into the mix... as weeks progressed, it turned into talking about it every time we had sex, certain aspects really got her juices flowing so to speak.

She seemed to latch on to the idea of it turning into a "boyfriend" scenario and got off on the idea of me being jealous at her having a sleep over and sending me pictures and movies, we even started taking videos of ourselves where my face was out of view and having various cock sleeves and strappable dildos to simulate another person and she sends them to me periodically....

Just last week, she started watching porn with me with hotwifing being the main theme and even found a favorite actress who resembles her A LOT and whose main focus in her movies is BBC, with her usually being the one to initiate the conversation and now movie.

Last night, after sex and a ton of roleplaying (at her initiation) she was quiet and then argumentative about how it's just a fantasy, and will NEVER happen, I was literally just washing up after sex with nothing but a kiss shared afterwards, it came from nowhere.... All I could say was, if roleplaying is where you want it to stay and your 100% sure.. then so be it, I'm happy to do this with you too....

is this part of the 1 step forward 2 steps back process ive heard so much about? From a hard no, to roleplaying with toys 4 to 5 nights a week at her request, to watching porn with a favorite actress while we are doing it, all within 5- 6 months, I thought showed some great progression, but if she is really torn like that, I feel guilty for putting her through it