Either most of these are fake or I married the wrong lady. I have brought up cuckolding and or hotwife lifestyle to spice up our sex life. But she isn’t into it.

1) thinks it’s an excuse for me to sleep with others. 2) make her feel like I am not a man 3) she feels like I am not or would not protect her.

She gave me a hall pass and I used it. For 6 months. Was with another woman besides my wife for the first time. My wife was my first.

She was surprised I used it. She is the jealous type and said it makes her sad to know I went out side the marriage. But she gets horny when she catches me checking out a beautiful woman says she likes it when I look but don’t touch but doesn’t like it when I do.

So I used this to tell her I like the fantasy is her touching. Which happened once. We went to check out a swinger event and at the end of the night she jerked two guys off at the same time. At made me pulse increase and my anxiety was through the roof I had a lot of emotions at the time. But since that night I have used that image a lot for arousal. I liked that uneasy feeling while watching her.

I really think she suppresses her sexual desires. Because last weekend I was giving her oral and I let my tongue wonder a little lower. She kept saying no but didn’t stop me. After her rose bud was wet I went back up and stuck my finger in upto the first knuckle. She asked me to stop but not really. So I left it there and wow she had two big orgasms on top of each other.

After she said it was amazing but doesn’t want to do it again because it’s to taboo. Sorry this is all over the place and getting long but trying to set the stage of our marriage. I think her hang up with hotwife or cuckold is her fear of taboos.