I've recently been exposed to the hotwife lifestyle here in this sub and been wondering about the idea. My wife and I have been in the swingers scene for a few years now and last year she told me that she wants to try and experience some sexual experiences by herself. At first I didn't know if I was okay with it, but after some discussions about it we decided to give it a try. She had a few one-nights with other men, and so did I with other women, and I realized that I am really turned on by the fact that my wife is fucking someone else. I myself didn't enjoy sleeping with other women as much as I thought, and generally prefer threesomes and foursomes with her. The thing is I am still struggling with mixed emotions when she meets with other men. I don't want to feel these feelings as It pleases both of us, but find it hard to fight. I told her that I feel like she is so awesome that other men should enjoy her too, but at the same time i can't relate to the cuckold or the domination lifestyle. This is very frustrating as I am not a jealous person and I have no problem whatsoever with her having sex with other men, but when I feel like I'm out of the picture and she enjoys it all by herself I can't help but feel neglected or left out. Is there anyone else here that understands my point of view and maybe found a solution that worked for you and your partner? Thanks! U