We are in the lifestyle for the past 3 years, but till today we did only MFMs, and for the past few months I encouraged her to play solo. Tommarow she has her first solo date, and I woke up with this disturbing thought that echo in my head and it goes like this:

If you love your husband deeply, how can you fuck other men?

Have you had this thought and how did you overcome it?

I will add that till this moment I have never had this thought in my head, and all this experience was encouraged by me (which gave us loads of amazing moments). I feel bad to raise this thought with my wife as I think it is not fair from my side to raise this question as who started this journey was me.