Hello everyone.

So i have been with my girlfriend for about 6 months and for the most part things have been amazing. She was hesitant about my interest in the lifestyle but i told her to get to know me before she made any decisions. Well we end up falling for each other and she jumps right into the deep end, sleeping with someone and going on dates! I was loving it but it was causing a lot of stress as it was not her thing at all and she was doing it for me.

Well we end up getting into some fights but our communication is pretty good so we work through them but each time i decide to pull back on the hotwife stuff.

Well as of last night we get into another argument about how hard this stuff is after she had gotten back from a date. Nothing happened and this was the first time she'd been on a date in a while.

So it's at this point I'm thinking well fuck... even her going out for a couple drinks and kissing a guy is too much for her and i can no longer comfortably ask her to do this stuff.. especially since 99% of my enjoyment in this, comes from her getting enjoyment out of it. So i suggest shutting it down completely and for the first time.. she finally agrees.

And now I'm rocked. I've been into the lifestyle pretty heavily how for like 6 years and to come to the realization that it's just over... i don't know i just feel like I've gone into this state of mild depression or something.

Anyone else ever deal with this, what do you do?