So, during sex, or during the buildup to sex...there isn't anything that will turn me on more then to think about my wife getting pounded by some stranger. I absolutely love it whenever I catch guys looking at her, or better yet...talking about what they'd do to her. I also get as turned on as humanly possible whenever I'm allowed to share a picture of her on the internet. But, the best is whenever she doesn't realize that every time she bends over, it shows her amazing tits to anyone who is lucky enough to be standing in front of her. Then, once the guy realizes that I caught him trying to do everything he can to see as much as possible. Seeing his scared reaction and just smiling and giving him the nod that it's okay...will nearly make me nut while I'm just standing there! So, it's not like all of my desires are just fantasies.

But, the instant after I nut...I usually feel embarrassed and kind of disgusted with myself for even being turned on by it. If I've been able to talk her into having sex in an area where someone might be able to see her....literally, the instant after I've nutted...I want her to hurry up and get dressed, so no one can see her naked. If she ever would want to have sex with another guy..there's absolutely no way in hell I'd be able to also be fucking her at the same time. Because, I have zero doubt that I'd be so turned on...I'd nut within a minute. Then, I honestly don't think I'd be able to stand by and just allow some other guy plow her...even if she was I to it.

So, I'm so conflicted with exactly what I really want here. TBH... I think the absolute best thing would have been if she had made a bunch of videos with her ex's before me. Because I'd still be bale to watch her, but it's not actually happening right in front of my eyes either.

I know that I've been all over the place here in this post. Hopefully, it wasn't to difficult to follow along??!