[LONG STORY | Sorry in advance for my grammar and spelling mistakes, English is not my native language.]

My girlfriend [F31] and i [M30] have been together for 16 years. In the beginning we had our ups and downs and also dated some other people along the way. I loved her very much but I also had interest in other girls. I think it was because of our age because we where around the age of 16, the age everyone starts dating.

So around this time we cheated on each other a few times. I went all the way with other people, while she only got the good ol' hands in the pants action.

After this period we only got closer towards each other and we just focussed on our relationship. We have had 2 kids, we both have a good job and good friends. Well actually they where my friends, my SO kinda neglected her social contacts over the years so we ended up with my friends being our shared friends.

4 years ago she had a friend we meet at concerts. They have been sexting behind my back. And they had one date as far as she told me. This date took place in a nearby park and they just talked, at least that is what she told me so far. I asked her what they've been talking about while they where sexting and she told me they just talked about how they where gonna have sex, but she never went in to detail and when I ask her these days she tells me she can't remember... Sadly enough.. Cause I don't mind as long as she shares the details with me and won't do those things behind my back.

At first I developed an obsession for my SO and especially her ass. All porn I watch i imagine the girl to be her and at the beginning I fantasized I was the guy. Later on this developed into a hotwife fantasy, so I fantasized about the girl being my SO, fucking the other guys, while I watched.

I've been fantasizing about the lifestyle and was hoping she would be into it to. But I was too ashamed to ask her since I'm quite the introvert.

After a while she accidentally left her phone on the table as she went to work and I couldn't control myself. But after some snooping around at first I couldn't find anything porn/guys related. But then I got to her video history.

And there was a lot of it. BBC, gangbang, lesbians scissoring, cheating wives, dp's

I also found out that when I go to work (nightshift) she gets her magic wand out and has a good time. Probably watching the porn I found earlier.

Since I was already interested in the lifestyle I waited till we had a nice evening and a few to many drinks and told her about my fantasy.

Like most wives in the beginning on this sub she told me she likes the idea but can only have sex with someone she's in love with. She also told me that she would probably be to nervous to do sexual things with someone else when I'm around.

I've tried a few times to get the hotwife conversation rolling but she tried to avoid the subject. And since I didn't want to be pushy I didn't talk about it for a while.

But a few months later she forgot her telephone again and I couldn't control myself and checked it again. And also this time it was full of BBC gangbang wife porn.

After this I made a fake social media account of a hot guy and just gave a compliment on her page.

I hoped it would cheer her up and that she had the feeling that guys still where Interested in her.

Because she give a lot of hints that she thinks that since she became a mom, that guys don't find her attractive anymore. Even though I tell her 10 times a day.

But after I gave her the compliment on her social media page with this fake guy account she immediately took the bait. And so we both started a double life for 2 weeks.

She told this fake guy everything about our relationship, sexual but also daily life.

And since she told that fake account all the information she never told me, i kept going on with this.

She sends him photos of her ass and cleavage, of her underwear and so on.

(She send me 1 picture in 5 years before this conversation. But when she sends him the sexy photos, she also sends them to me out of the blue.)

She told him that she almost sucked a guys dick, but that i just came walking her way and she stopped but had his zipper already opened. This was like 10 years ago and she never told me in rl.

She also said things like, i want to lick the sperm off your abs after you jerked yourself off.

And everytime I talked to her with the fake account, i asked her if she would like a threesome with 2 guys. And I asked if I (fake account) could come over and visit her. Because I myself was at work at those moments i asked, so she could've said yes. But everytime she said no. Even though she kept sending sexy pics. I asked her if her bf would mind, she said probably not. So I said, "inform him". But she never did.

Untill one day she found out/i confessed that it was a fake account.

On one side she was angry but on the other side she told me she hasn't been as horny in years while she was talking with that fake person.

Once every few weeks we have some friends over for some drinks. A couple and a single guy.

My SO and the single guy, let's call him Tom, are always close, always sit next to each other and they dare each other to drink another drink or to finish the bottle together. And he's full off sexual jokes towards her. And like I said he tries to get her drunk everytime.

Later on I found out they also send each other a lot of text messages. He tells her a lot that he is missing a woman in his life and asks her if it is possible to rent her as a girlfriend for a night. She laughed and told him well off course. And they always send a lot of hearts and love.

Well I'm gonna end it here for now, you can always ask questions or give advice if you want.

My ultimate goal is to make her my hotwife. (In a kind off stag and vixen dynamic) but maybe i fucked up already, i don't know. She likes the idea but not yet in our relationship, i think.