My husband and I have a very honest and open relationship. I think you need to, when doing something like this. I would characterize our sexual relationship as an intersection of a Total Power Exchange, Stepford wife and Free use. Our marriage isn't any of those in its entirety, but they carry elements of each.

My sexuality is derived in giving up control. Not to anybody, but only to my husband. I truly get off on that. It's such a powerful emotion. Don't get me wrong, I'm an independent, highly educated woman. I have opinions of my own, and a voice to say them. And I always can say no. But I get off on transferring my sexuality to someone that I love and trust. With his care and leadership, I'm able to fully explore and fulfill being my husband's wife, his trophy, his slut. We of course, have our limits, ground rules. He would never cross them, and we often discuss them. But his autonomy, his desires, his kinks become my own. And it's a mind fuck for me to able to do this for him, for us.

In my opinion, I'm always available for my husband. Both in a traditional marriage, and in our kinky Hotwife sex life. He can do whatever he pleases. Or even temporarily transfers this unique trust, to another man. I would recognize that new man, and his newfound power, as if he was my husband himself. Again, so long as it remains within our fundamental ground rules and limits. My husband is the love of my life, my soulmate, my support. Without him, I would be lost in the vast abyss of life. And he would say the same things of me.

When I truly go into orgasmic bliss is when my husband approves of this. As in this stranger thing, or the Hotwife dynamic in general. I have his love, his trust, his confidence. When I do this, I do this for the both of us. I want this role, this validation. To fuck another man, in front of my husband. There's no humiliation here. Rather a celebration. As he watches and approves, he is so loving, so calm, so powerful. He doesn't watch often. There are certain circumstances in which he does. So when he does, it's that much better.

As for the bull, there's a sense of gratitude. Sure, he's able to enjoy a night of no string attached sex. But for us, it is about being thankful for him, to allow us to explore and satisfy this area of our marriage. Selfishly, it's about us, more than it is about him. And for that, I'm grateful to the bull, and I would happily manifest that gratitude in whatever kinky and dirty ways the bull wanted me to. To get off multiple men simultaneously, one with my body and the other with our marriage, is quite alluring.