Part 1 BACKGROUNG

I've been married for almost 7 years (2nd marriage for both of us), a hotwife for about 3 years, and have had the same regular - my boyfriend - for about 2 years. I see him on average a few times a month, usually dinner at his house followed by fun times. Sometimes I have a sleep over, and occasionally he takes me out of town for a weekend away.

The town we live in isn't huge, and I grew up here. This means I know a lot of people, and just as importantly, a lot of people know me. Because of my profession, I can't be seen parading around town with my boyfriend. This is why I just go to his house for date night. And the weekends away are the only time we can go out on a date. Thankfully he is a decent cook.

I was lucky to find a single, attractive guy who I actually like that was willing to get tested and show results, is willing to participate in a scenario like this, and that I trust when he promises to use protection if he is with anyone else. He is truly lovely and I enjoy spending time with him. And my husband absolutely loves it when I come home from date night with evidence of that enjoyment.

Some time ago the idea of a 2nd boyfriend was discussed. Husband and boyfriend (who don't regularly hang out, but like each other and occasionally collaborate on a fun surprise for me) were both in favour of the idea. I signed up for a few online profile websites but didn't have a lot of luck, with several of the messages I recieved from people I know in my professional life. Yikes! Thankfully I was careful to keep my identity hidden. I gave up on that.

Last year my boyfriend told me a friend of his was moving to town for a new job, and might make a good candidate. He was coming for a pre-move visit, and we made arrangements to have a date night when he was around. The idea was to have a casual meet-and-greet at boyfriend's house, the friend staying for dinner and then leaving so that date night could proceed. I found myself quite nervous and had several glasses of wine at boyfriend's house before the friend even arrived. He eventually arrived and turns out he was quite attractive. I had several more glasses of wine with dinner. The evening became quite flirty, and, despite my assurances to myself that it wouldn't happen that night, I ended up having a threesome with the two of them. It was amazing.

Until the morning when my hungover brain realized that I never asked if he had been tested, and condom usage hadn't even been discussed. Despite this, boyfriend initiated a round of morning sex, which is pretty common for us. His friend, who had slept on the couch, heard what was happening and came back to join. I was able to compartmentalize my anxiety and set it aside, managing to enjoy the morning round with these two men.

But the anxiety and guilt hit me on my short drive home. I got home to husband crying, ashamed of my carelessness. He didn't mind there had been a threesome (he had given me the green light beforehand, despite my assurances that it was only a platonic meet). Through my tears I could also tell he was immensely turned on. He somehow successfully consoled me while also taking me to the bedroom, taking off my wrinkled clothes, and experiencing for himself the evidence of two men inside me. This actually made me feel a bit better.

Unfortunately, the friend's plans changed when his existing job matched the job offer he got, and he ended up not moving. The mixed emotions I had about that encounter combined with the bad experiences with the various online profile services turned me off the idea. I concluded that I wouldn't find another unicorn and I should be grateful with what I have. And I am.

But the idea of another boyfriend has resurfaced. My husband brought it up a few times, and on the most recent occasion we had a good long conversation about it. I must admit that the idea of stopping for a quickie on my way home from a date night before arriving home to husband is tremendously arousing. That's why I'm again willing to entertain the idea of a search.

So keep your eyes posted here as I'll be writing about my quest whether it is successful or not.

Stay tuned for Part 2.