I let my wife know I had this kink several years ago. Her immediate reaction of disgust progressed to warming up to it a bit and we’ve even done some dirty talk and role play but that was short lived. At the end of the day, I don’t think she has any interest in doing it at all, not even playing into the fantasy privately, and anything she has done or might do in the future is just to appease me. She was super slutty and wild in the past but I think marriage and motherhood has truly changed her. I think she just got her fair share of dicks and is done.

How do I get past this? Do I just keep this to myself for the rest of my life and not burden her with this? Spend my time sharing stories with redditors? Do I try to suppress this fantasy completely? I feel defeated and embarrassed.