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My Thai girlfriend and I have been together 2 years now. Met her when I was in Bahrain, in the military, she was a prostitute at the time and I bought her, I never ever planned on actually getting with her, but for some reason I just really missed her and ended up paying her visa to leave and go back to Thailand this caused her to fall in love with me, and when I asked her to stop selling pussy she agreed. Currently, I got out the military and am currently working at a Coca-Cola.

I will be moving to Thailand in January. Now the question is what are your guys thoughts on this. My girlfriend was working girl on and off for 14 years. And as she says has had millions of men use her pussy and throat. In the beginning of our relationship I was so weak, as I developed feelings and considered loyalty to her. It began to bothered me so much knowing that she was a working girl, it the jealousy was so bad, that I could feel it in my chest like it was effecting my heart or something, now, she chose to stop doing the job for my sake, though she does enjoy the job she said, as it's easy money and obviously cock feels nice. She loves me and she said she wants to have a normal relationship.

She is a chubby thai woman 39 years old big jiggly tattooed ass, I am a 26 year old dark skinned Puerto Rican. I never thought I'd develop these feelings but they were inevitable because I wanted a way to stop feeling overwhelmed by her past, it bothered me so much, knowing what she was doing, I had dreams and fantasized her encounters with random men coming into her room and spreading her wide open.

Now my girlfriend vagina is indeed damaged she feels loose, but still good. When I was in Bahrain before our relationship we did 69 and her vagina would just open up like gape. I thought it was hot but I know why it did that. Most men that were buying her were African American men. She loves those types of men. I myself am passable as African American. And I know my looks is 1 reason why she is with me as she has had 10 boyfriends and they were all African American.

Now to cope with these jealousy feelings I looked up what is the opposite of jealousy, which lead me to compersion and with compersion lead me to this type of lifestyle. I didn't know much about this and thought it was freaking weird to let your woman have another man. But the more I read the more I understood why guys were letting their wives do this.

When my girlfriend came to Japan to see me, we saw each other's phones, and I ended up catching some videos of her, 1 where her now ex boyfriend slapped her booty and she was grinding on him while wearing a thong, another she tickled his penis through his underwear, 1 was a picture she was laying down booty naked on a different man he was fat and hairy and it was obvious they were having sex his cock was deep inside her even though I couldn't see the sex her face was flustered with pleasure and she was turned reddish.

Another a guy was recording her twerk, and another she just got done fucking and had her ass in the air while recording herself looking at a mirror right before a customer came in and the video shut off. I saw these videos she freaked out but she and tried to take it from me, but while I watched i felt nothing, no jealousy no compersion. I think this was the beginning of the desire, finding a reason to stay with her because the jealousy was so bad, I took this route.

I already thought about my girlfriend in that way, I just didn't feel pleasure by it but now I did. It started to rage in me like some kind of storm. I remember when my girlfriend would say things like "you want me to sell my pussy" she only say stuff like this to arrise negative emotions in me as my girlfriend is quite controlling. Our relationship is slightly toxic but also very loving. What could you expect I was a player, and she was a prostitute.

Now the thoughts were so good I started imagining her throwing her big booty down on some customer when I watch her twerking videos she sent to me. I pay her money every month but the thought came what if I just let her go back to selling her juicey fat Thai pussy, but only if I get some sexy videos, I was already going down on her 69ing her when she was a prostitute watching her previously used pussy from her other customer dick memory show on her pussy before shoving my tung in the same hole.. before our relationship and I am pansexual, so I already like dick, I just don't like ugly men. Which she has been fucked by many ugly men.

I started thinking about a man filling her cunt and seeing her pussy all messy, turned me on so much, I was happy to feel not jealousy anymore, 2 years ago during our beginning stages of the relationship she was going to a club and I told her where you going she told me I am selling pussy.

While she put on her lip stick. I didn't know what to say so I said nothing, not to mention a month prior I tried buying her again and she told me she is at another man's house right now, and I tried texting her and nothing she was getting her booty cheeks shook, that day I actually felt jealousy so I took it out on her and she blocked me, then unblocked me I reached out her her and we ending up fucking again obviously I paid her, she was only 100 dollars yes 100 dollars.

She is such a different person from how she is now, she is so secretive about herself and it sucks before she was so open and confident, but I know she is like this because she doesn't want me thinking different. So I tried to change that. I brought up an open relationship and it bothered her we argued and didn't talk about it again, for another 6 months this time is when this desire was strong and I had no more jealousy and honestly wanted to test that.

I brought up what if you started selling pussy again, she said "hell no, if I sell my pussy, I break up with you" this kinda pissed me off because I knew I would never be able to have this kind of relationship with her even though she was such a whore in Bahrain. I'm talking she had trains ran on her, 2 guys on her, 3 some with her and her female friends and a guy, and she even offered me a 3 some too before our relationship.

It hurts knowing your girlfriend would give a 3some to a client more than a man she wants to marry. I know my girlfriend isn't that jealousy she is just acting because she feels she has to try hard to be this goody goody type girlfriend. She is doing a good job but man I wish she just take my offer, cuz I'd still love her, I think I'd love her even more to be honest knowing balls are hanging out my soon to be wife is just too much.

Normally this would be overwhelming painful jealousy but now it's overwhelming good feelings compersion. I wanna see my woman happy, and I know she loves cock a lot, I mean her vagina has been used sooooo much it gapes open naturally which is hot. She called it "big pussy" and she wants me to make her asshole like that. But I couldn't help to think about a male friend I used to fuck with, I just to go to his room and suck his large dick. And he had big muscles, I could just imagine him absolutely destroying my girlfriend and imagining what her beautiful sounds would be, as my girlfriend makes pussy farts.

From his large chocolate dick creaming her and letting his cum be lube for my dick. Ugh..It too hot. I brought it up to my girlfriend that she should be a prostitute and we should make it work and again she attacks me and counters she said she would love to do that job, but she would dump me. I don't get why she can't grasp that yes people can be together and love each other while sexually active with others.

She is not offended by herself being a working girl but offended that I might want to screw other girls. Which honestly I could say I would remain faithful, I just want more erotic sex videos as I don't really watch porn I only watch my girlfriend. I see this will never happen as her mind is solidified and she is a different woman completely then what she was before.

I stopped and just keep the fantasy to myself but something is telling me years down the line she will bring it up and I will decline because I know that it is not love. Any thoughts?