I've been writing about my hidden desire to share my girlfriend.. (She's actually my fiancé)

It's been difficult for me to open up to her about this..

she would not expect me to want something like this for us.. for her..

I don't think she's mentally prepared for this conversation.. admittedly, l'm not so sure myself.. While I'm certain I want our relationship to take this path, I realize at our current state it may be too much for us.. I would like to take my time introducing this idea to my girlfriend.. Simultaneously working on myself in the process.. While I wholeheartedly desire this fantasy, I really need to allow myself to come to terms with the reality.. What if she doesn't even want to go through with it? I refuse to pressure her into doing anything she doesn't want to do. I'm not going to manipulate her or abuse her trust in me. In the end, I rather keep these feelings to myself than make her do something she might regret.. Risking getting her upset and compromising my relationship with her is not worth fulfilling this desire of mine..

However! I will admit... While I'm not 100% sure how my girlfriend will react, I do think it’s worth a shot trying to pursue this thing.. So far, it's surprisingly going better than expected..

We made progress!!! (small) progress.. but still.. I’ll share this news in a separate post for those who are interested in hearing :)

I took some suggestions from you lovely people who were kind enough to reach out to me. I think bringing it up out of the blue is not a good idea.. in fact I think she needs some time warming up to it.. here’s what I had in mind…

From what I can see, my partner is taking an interest in reverse harem books.. (is this a good sign?)

She’s reading things such as: The Devil’s Night series, Credence, Five Brothers..

I’m thinking of buying her more books but with heavy themes of wife sharing and hotwifing.. Anything with a MFM storyline would work I suppose.. If anyone has any suggestions or recommendations please don’t hesitate to reach out! .. I think this is a good way to introduce the concept to my girlfriend without directly communicating it to her.. If I learn she’s taking a liking to the books and its themes I’ll continue getting her more until she gets suspicious of me specifically buying this genre…

Is this a bad idea? I hope I’m not being manipulative.. I figured this approach would be like safely casting a hook from afar seeing if I can land a catch..

Thank you to everyone showing their support and providing me with guidance. Speaking with a lot of you has truly been a pleasure.