I feel like my situation is a little weird and unique but hey I guess everybody probably feels that way and I could use some advice. Here goes.

So my husband and I were going to go on a 5 day / 4 night backpacking trip with 2 of his close friends, starting on Sunday. I've known them for years and he's known them for forever. We go backpacking somewhat often and have done it with friends so it isn't anything too unusual for us. Anyway, some work and family stuff came up for my husband and he had to cancel sorta last minute, but what surprised me is that he encouraged me to still go without him.

When we talked about it it was pretty clear he was supportive of (and even encouraging) me going with an "open mind" (his words) and that he's also ok if things ended up getting physical, all the way up to and including having sex with them. I was and am a little shocked. We've talked about that as an idea before, but only in a very theoretical way, so this feels like a big step to potentially have plans to try it.

A few details probably worth mentioning:

• It's remote enough that there probably wouldn't be cell coverage most of the time.
• I haven't been with many guys. Very few. It would be a big deal for me.
• If I'm being honest, yes I'm attracted to them both. I'm also attracted to the idea and it feels like a really unique adventure that might be a lot of fun.
• My husband joked(?) about not packing a tent and just staying with one of them. I think he's joking but honestly can't tell.
• As a woman, it's not like there are any showers out there ... and everyone gets pretty gross anyway while hiking. 😬

I could definitely just cancel. Or I could go but be really clear about boundaries and expectations. Orrr... I could go and give myself permission to have fun for a few days and let things happen naturally.

What do you think?

Edit: 31F if it matters.