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For those that give a fuck. Thanks 🙏

Even though I was leaning on the side of not doing it, my dick did start getting the best of me. For those that told me not to do it, thank you. I actually think y’all saved my marriage lol. Kidding.

There was one comment that bitch slapped me back to reality, “the fun about this life is that you both get something front it.” So simple. I even used it in my text to her, so thanks for that.

My text:

“I can’t do it. The fun about this life is that we both get something from it.

I’m sorry that I even allowed this to be an option for you to choose from.

I’m a fucking idiot.

See you tonight.”

Now. I’m dealing with the aftermath. I get home from the gym and she gave me the deepest hug. Keep in mind that I sent her that text hours beforehand as I already made up my mind then.

We talk about our day and then bring up this “hotwife dilemma” we are in. Long story short, even though she gave me the green light to do this, she is upset that I am mentally capable of doing this with a couple. Even though I never went through with it………….

Tbh I don’t know if I am even mentally capable of doing this! I’ve never done it! My intention was to help them out as they helped us out. We all know how difficult it is to find a reliable third. Wanting to help is what clouded my judgment and that is how I explained it to her and apologized. Again.

Honestly, I was kinda shocked that she was turning this into a bigger deal. I thought she would be so happy that I decided not too.

She proceeds to ask me to go through my messages with him. Keep in mind that anything sexual is communicated on a Kik. I hand her my phone and she does through the messages on my phone.

She says nothing about todays conversations is in here and hands me back my phone. I told her I chat with him on kik.

Then. She asks to see the the messages on kik.

At this point I feel like I am being cornered and I said, No. what’s the point?

She asks that there is no point and that I am being sketchy about not showing her the messages.

The conversation died there and we haven’t spoken since. We just acted normal around the babies.

I’m trying to control my temper and emotions but I feel like I was set up for failure! That’s really unfair. I didn’t even go through with it.

The reason I said no about letting her see the kik messages was because a lot of sexual conversations were had. You know, their likes/dislikes, what I can do/can’t do and stories of previous adventures. I wanted to understand them as at that time I was debating on doing it.

If she’s like this after giving me the green light, imagine what she’d be like after reading my messages with him.

Lol wtf do you I do? I feel like I did all the right things.