Me and my GF have been dating for 3 years. Living together for 2 and at first she was a little skeptical about all of this but within a few weeks she was absolutely 100% in to the point where I it's more than I would have ever thought.

But probably in the past few months I just always obsess over her actually cheating, as in her not even necessarily even telling me she did anything, either not at first or not at all. How I would even find out at all to get turned on by it? I'm not even sure lol but the idea of her just being so turned on that she didn't even want to say anything but just went and cheated is unbelievably hot. I feel like some people would say this is more of a "other type of lifestyle" thing but it has but it has nothing to do with the humiliation or any of that I get more turned on by the teasing of her being pretty sly and the freedom she has to literally do whatever she wants and even just the idea of me stumbling upon something that means she's cheating is ridiculously hot.

We've toyed with the idea here and there that she legit could if she wanted but she always said that she wasn't sure if she'd like the feeling since we've always done things one on one but I always get turned on way more when she's being a little hidden a out things. For instance last night after one of her unexpected encounters, while inside her she said she really enjoys telling guys she doesn't have a boyfriend so they think she's single. Something about her preferring that is amazing. Some people would say that's a red flag but I think accepting her and not trying to control her guarantees a lot more than just arbitrarily making her say things to adhere to some sort of convention. Making this our thing and not just sticking to the "default" rules is what makes it fun and what has kept us together for as long as we have been so it wouldn't make sense to change it now.

During her last date she actually called me about an hour, while acting like I was just a friend, that she didn't actually need a ride home since this guy was gonna ride her home instead. It was super sexy for her to just to originally be texting this guy on our way home, 1 block away from home but then ask to be driven to his hotel, fuck him while telling him she doesn't have a boyfriend, ask me to hang around a bit but then after an hour call me and tell me that I could go home since he was going to get her home. I just feel like stuff like this is one step closer to her actually cheating and it's just sexy to see all different sides of her, not just the "conventionally agreed upon" ones, but literally all sides of her.