I have slowly been trying to introduce my wife to the the LS for the past 4-5 years. Dirty talk, porn, roleplay etc. She will go along with it while hot and heavy and after we're done with sex she always tells me that she's not going to do it. She always says it's not her and apologizes.

We recently had a trip to another city and she agreed to take it a bit further and sit alone at a bar and chat up some guys and then get back to our hotel and use that for sex. While she was tipsy she told me that she would be good to go with it that time and she would be ready to fuck another guy..she even pointed out a couple of guys she liked. Honestly I thought wow, it's finally going to happen!

Well, the day after was extremely sobering. She told me if I kept pushing she would probably go through with it, but she honestly believes it would destroy our marriage. She asked me to please look into counseling if I needed to in order to control my kink. Again she said that she does not want to do it. She was very reassuring and told me she loves me and I'm more than enough for her.

So the past week has been one of me accepting this is not going to happen and letting go if the fantasy as much as possible.