My wife played solo for the first time on Tuesday. I’ve made two posts about it.

It’s been a few days, and I don’t want it all to seem like sunshine and roses so thought I’d post more follow up.

My wife is ready to go again with this guy. She’s less interested in solo play with others, and agrees that swinging together is more fun. But she likes this guy a lot and wants to get together with him again soon. Obviously, he’s on board.

I’m less excited. When I compare this experience to swinging, it feels a lot less like something she and I are doing “together”. She mentioned getting together with him again this weekend or next week and made a comment about how she knew I’d be excited. I let her know this time around it wouldn’t so much be for my enjoyment.

I have to strongly say I have no concerns about my relationship to my wife. I am her #1.

Maybe I’m having feelings of jealousy. That doesn’t feel like the right word. She and I have fooled around every day since and are super close. Maybe it’s the feeling of being “left out”. She said next time she’d figure out pictures and video if that would make me feel more included. Idk…maybe.

Maybe it is jealousy. I get a pang of this feeling when I think about it being a memory she has that I don’t. When we’ve swapped with other couples, we were both there. In the days that followed we could talk about specific elements and relive them together. But in this case, we can’t do that. It wasn’t my experience. It was their experience. So they get to talk about it and relive it.

Gonna just keep rambling if I don’t stop. Anyway, as I told my wife yesterday when I said this all to her, “who knows, maybe next week the idea makes me horny again, the penis is a mystery that way”