My Gf (F22, whom I will refer to as T) and I (M21) have been talking about doing this for almost 2 years now. I brought it up to her first and she was hesitant for a very long time. I have developed this kink due to past toxic relationships and being cheated on by ex. But I have so much trust and respect with T I am able to turn trauma into sexual kink with her. I have to admit getting here was rocky, and there have been times when I pushed too hard due to my selfish desires. But I am happy that she is able to have a lot of fun and be comfortable now and thankful she was willing to step into this together.

For the past month T has been matching with guys on Tinder. And so far she has gone on 2 dates with 2 different guys. First one was bowling but she wasn't really interested in him after. The second one though, we will call him BK, she is very interested in B. She went on her first date with BK at a sushi place last week, they didn't do much, just chatted and had a quick kiss before leaving. We have agreed to not share about my existence for now since it will be difficult so BK does not know about me.

Now let's talk about what I am trying to get out of this. I don't just want to have the occasional 3somes or jerk off to my gf fucking other guys. I want T to be in a position where she can enjoy what 99% of the taken women don't get to. I don't question T's love for me and there is no chance that she would ever leave me. So I want her to be able to date other men and enjoy the heat of a new couple anytime she wants to. T is very out of my league and the type of girl that is able to get anyone. I want her to have other boyfriends, hold hands in public and even allow her to fall in love.

So last night when 2024 arrived, she decided she wants a 2nd date with BK. She texted BK right next to me and BK told her that he's free all day tmr ;). It's very nice that BK has his own house, because we live with my parents and it is not possible to do anything here. T has also been looking for a new job and it happened that her main consideration is very close to BK's house. She left an hour ago, i am able to see her location on my phone and can see that she's been at his house for the past 30 minutes. And just now, she just went outside to the car to get something and used the opportunity to call me. She asked me to guess what she's doing and told me she's been cuddling with him while watching Netflix, most importantly they have been making out!! T also said that he's been rubbing her back which she loves and complained that I never rub her unless she asks me to. Her intention today is to sleep with him. So here I am writing this and waiting for her text or call about what happens.

My heart is pounding and the excitement is hard to describe. I know that I am a twisted sick fuck created by past trauma but grateful to have an amazing gf to turn it into an incredible lifestyle.