I know how the title must sound, but I found inner peace (not feeling stressed or anxious) at a time when that was all I could feel. I meditated, worked out, and did yoga but the feeling of someone else in our relationship made me feel relaxed and I could overcome my anxiety.

My husband Jack and I got married in our early twenties (7 years ago) because he was in the military and was being deployed. We stayed close while he was gone but we put our lives together on hold until he got back. He knew that I was going to be lonely and we discussed the idea of having a side guy while he was gone. He suggested having his friend Eric come over and have sex. Jack and I trusted Eric and we knew that would be willing to respect our boundaries. We invited Eric over and asked him if he would be willing to be in an amorous relationship with me while Jack was deployed. Eric was surprised but agreed to keep it discrete and said he would be willing to start whenever I was ready.

I waited two weeks before I texted Eric and I invited him over. I felt a slight feeling of guilt because Jack wasn't there but I knew that I had his permission. Eric is good-looking, he is 6'3 200 with blondish-brown hair. He is muscular and reminded me a lot of Jack. We talked on the couch and he casually leaned over and kissed me. We had not been together before and it felt natural so I just kissed him and we took off our clothes. We moved to the bedroom where he was more into pleasuring me than being pleasured. It felt amazing and it felt so much different than what I was used to. We had sex and then he left.

I showered after, I felt so much better it helped me to feel like myself again and I told Jack all the details when we talked. Eric would come over and check on me every few weeks and we would do it. It didn't feel like cheating because Jack knew. It went on for about a year and a half until he got home.

The day Jack got home, he relaxed and we invited Eric to come over for dinner and we drank together. Jack wanted to share me with Eric so he led me into the bedroom and both guys took turns with me. It was amazing! We all hung out afterward and Eric went home. Jack wanted me to be close to me and we were together again.

But, I kind of missed the 1on1 sessions with Eric. I told Jack how I felt and he agreed to allow me to invite Eric over whenever he was gone. I did that it seemed to work out but eventually we agreed that I would go over to Eric's apartment have sex and come home. Then we could still have sex together and I could also have time with Eric. I love and respect Jack and enjoy the freedom and trust of having a side guy (as we call it). But Jack is not any less of a man because I feel satisfied with him and Eric.