Should I even try to convince gf anymore? If so how?

Is there any way to get my girlfriend into it?

She basically banned me from ever bringing it up again lol. I’ve brought it up different times, and she won’t have it. She says she can’t do it without tying emotions to someone else which she doesn’t want to do.

Some context though early in our relationship she would bring up getting fucked during sex and talk about other guys but when I ask her now why she is that before and won’t do it now she says she was hurt by it but did because she saw how excited I got.

There was also 1 night we went on those random video chat sites and she put on a show for people that I really enjoyed a lot.

However for over a year now she is disgusted by anything about this topic. Am I done for?