Pre-text: I’ve briefly brought up my interest in hotwife-related activity with my partner a couple of times over the past few months, like hearing about her past sexual exploits or possibly even having a threesome at some point. She didn’t outright say no to anything, but any effort to discuss it further was pretty much shut down. That is, up until now.

A few nights ago, she was giving me a handjob and I asked her where I stand size-wise amongst all the people she’s been with. She seemed uncomfortable with the question, just said I’m average and there all pretty much the same, and she isn’t going to rank me like that.

Last night I brought up size again, at first said “they’re all pretty much the same”. We laid together and she asked if there was anything we could do to spice up sex, I told her I felt like it was fine and asked her the same question. She said she’d like it to be rougher. She wants to be bent over hard, grabbed, choked and slapped, borderline feel taken advantage of.

She asked what my kinks were. At this point it felt like she was maybe just prying to get me to admit it again. This would basically be the second time it seemed like she started a convo with the intent of maybe gauging if my interest remained, I told her she already pretty much knew, but this time I listed off specific scenarios I think would be hot. Hearing her past, posting her online, letting her flirt with someone, eventually maybe a threesome.

We talked about my kinks for a bit, and she told me that she is just worried about doing anything that one of us would end up regretting, or ruining the relationship. She said that even though I gave her the green light, she has a hard time overcoming that barrier in her own head. She also would feel bad that I don’t get to experience other women, and even though I told her that I don’t need that, it’s another mental block for her because it would feel unfair.

After talking about it a little more, it did sound like there was scenarios that sounded hot to her. She didn’t completely shut down any of the one’s I brought up, but the two she kept going back to the most were flirting at a bar with someone and the threesome. It felt like she was interested, and trying to feel me out to see what she could say she was okay with.

She said that the main reason she held off on telling me about her past is because she didn’t want to feel like she was betraying me in some way, but that now she sees that maybe I’m above that. Then she divulged a lot of information.

She said she was insecure about us not having a lot of sex recently because she was hyper sexual when she was younger. She would do things like sneak guys into her apartment, or go out to their cars at night. She would cheat on boyfriends, go to bars and parties and flirt, and occasionally hook up with guys. Then she went back to the size question, and said most were smaller, maybe only one was bigger and that it was mostly just uncomfortable.

I asked if she has always been into rougher sex. She said yes, when she was younger, she would seek out the older guys who were more experienced. They would basically treat her like she was just there to look pretty and get fucked, which she liked.

She talked more about what I do that she likes, then she got horny and we fucked. She pulled out her dildo (that almost never gets used) and put it in her, then guided me in so she was being double-penetrated. I fucked her hard and she had what looked like the most intense orgasm I’ve seen in a long time, if not the entire relationship. The next morning she woke me up with dry humping and we almost had sex again, but she was too sore. The past 24 hours she’s been the most loving and most horny I’ve seen her in a long time.