Title was supposed to say finally decided to leave.

So a while I came here asking for advice regarding hotwifing, because my husband had mentioned it was his fantasy and was super excited to try it out. Got some good advice from some of you . But after talking to a few guys and they guys mentioned how excited they were to fuck me and I talked to them and set a few dates my husband got cold feet and decided he didn't want to do it. And it ruined it for me over and over. . And I no longer want to do it.

Now he wants it and won't stop talking about it, but I don't want to do it again because I know where it will end. I came back and asked for advice and after explaining how things are and how he was treating. And constantly putting me down. Many said I was in a toxic relationship. And how he was acting was nothing of the lifestyle And should leave because of how toxic he was. I got pm''ed and also got told to tell him how I felt which I did and it went nowhere.

He still wants to go through with it and because I told him I didn't want to do it and ended the conversation, he got so upset with me. That for the last 8 months he will bring it up and if I say no, he starts a fight that day or the following day, about the most dumbest things. Like if there's a sock on the floor it's a fight. And even if I say he makes it seem that it will happen by force if I like it or not.

He is starting to pull away all affection to punish me, puts me down ., And trys t to lower myself esteem. And stops talking to me for weeks. Unless he wants sex he will act like everything is ok, then goes back to arguing after sex. And is constantly threatening me, of ending the relationship , because he knows I would never leave him because he's the only man I have ever been with. So I just realized, that I'm to fucking good for him, I do not needed this shit , I'm better then this, and he said he's afraid I'm gonna leave him. When I realize how beautiful and how amazing I am, Well he's achieved it. I see it now, His obsession for this is starting to make me hate the person he's becoming, I have told my family and I plan to leave him. I appreciate all of you for the advice specifically that person that dm and spoke to me and made me open my eyes on how this is supposed to work and what he wants is nothing of this lifestyle, it's about him and only him.

To everyone that has a loving relationship that listen to each other and are able to keep the love. I envy you. The best of luck to all . And thank you for making me see how toxic this relationship is.

Sorry English isn't my first language.