Ok. Umm. Long story short, I fell in love with someone who is not my husband. He started to feel ignored and started getting mad. I tried, I really did. I feel like every effort I made was downplayed and cast aside. Not good enough.

I went out one day, to my "friend" and was called later to come home; he denied he gave permission. He was mostly asleep when I asked and I worried he wouldn't remember. I should have stayed home. Sigh

Big fight ensues. Massive. He's yelling and won't get away from me. I don't remember who did what but it got physical. He had deep scratches on his neck, I limped away with a few bruises. No one was ok here.

We don't live together right now. I have no where else to go. I'm actually staying with the guy we're fighting about. I'm trying to get my own place asap. I know I need some time and space. I'm not sure if this can ever be fixed or forgiven.