Update* 12:26 a.m.

She called me @11:26 (texts still on unread) saying “omg baby I have never came so much in my life” I stayed calm and said “Baby that’s awesome but you know it’s been hours since you contacted me, I was half way there to the pin drop you made, not even an actual live gps. So atleast now I get to turn around and head back home(1:45 minute drive to there and back so an hour out and then an hour back home). You do know I almost had to call the police, like you haven’t contacted me since 9:32 when you just dropped a pin and before that the last text was at 7:05 when you got to villa, I even texted you at 7:56 that I got bailed on by my friends so I was heading home then nothing till I texted you “soo…” at 9:32…. Then NOTHING till 11:26 when you call me.

I’m honestly a bit thrown off, she’s always been bad about texting and checking in. But as of recent good about turning active gps just for her own safety cause she knows I don’t text and text during the night. But this literally cut right at my fears. Like am I blind to something. Sadly there is no way of being able to type this out for yall to understand the type of love and trust we have. So it sucks but I will get over this. But things will be changing. I’ve been wanting some freedom and I think this was life telling me I needed it. And it’s not even about going out or fucking other people. It’s just a respect like I need some space I think. Disclaimer, being home I did smoke a big bowl of pot and had a couple tall boys, I don’t drink but once or twice a month so tall boys GET ME. She should be home soon. I’ll get over it, I know she wants me and our life over everything. Just will be changing the openness a bit cause that’s not right. Hypocrisy, is something I’m not cool with especially how open and cool I’m with shit….honestly idk why I’m even texting all this out. Maybe for me later to read and to see what my thoughts are on it in a week. A month. A year. Shit even maybe 5/10 years down the road, I love looking in the past to see th future but that the same time knowing past doesn’t dictate anything for the future. The future is what you hold it too. Be you and push.

Okay can someone help Me Figure this out, It’s 10:20 and haven’t heard anything. At all. She’s not even sending current gps, all she did was send me that one time location. Do I need to be going to this address?