Ok so I just want to get everyone's thought on this and see if it's common or if it's unique to me!

I've been with my girl for over a year now, we live together with me, her, and her son who I've pretty much adopted at this point! Life is absolutely amazing!

We have been in and out of it ever since we got together because it's something I've known I wanted for some time! She was into it a little at first then took a break to make sure we were serious, then started back up like 4 or 5 months ago!

Things are going great and I have no complaints other that she's not into doing it as often as I would like but really, who cares! She's amazing and the best thing that's happened to me!

Anyways, to my question!.. I've found that the longer we're together and the more I love her, the more intense this hotwife kink/ desire is. It seems to be the only thing that will really get me worked up! Like don't get me wrong, I am insanely attracted to my girl in every way and we have incredible sex! But I just find myself constantly thinking about it to the point where I'll be watching videos on reddit and I'm legit thinking "ugh!!! I want my girl to do that so bad!" And get semi frustrated lol. Then I'll go and watch a video of my girl with one of her guys and within 30 seconds my dick is throbbing like crazy and I feel like I'm going to cum just from touching it!

Am I crazy or what? Lol not a super serious question, just trying to hold myself over till the lady goes out again lol!