I’d like beforehand apologize for my grammar I have never posted. This is definitely different for me.

Overall story in a little background

28 m 30 f Both super happy with our sex life.

She’s really quiet and soft-spoken and very self-conscious. Sober. A little alcohol prep mix on things which is awesome. So about a year ago, she asked me when she was tipsy if I’d like to watch her get f****** I thought on it for a couple days, knowing that she had asked me and that state of mind. So I brought up when she was sober. I said that I would be interested if that was something she was serious about. About a year went by. She finally kind of picked someone ish after 6 months. Tried setting it up over a 6 month span It finally happened last night. I enjoyed that she finally got to and she enjoyed that she finally got to do something also.

I’m more joyed than I am up set. I knew when I went in the this that I would be giving more than I was getting in return. I support her and what she wanted to do.

She wanted me to pick a few things that she could give me so I didn’t feel left out. (Her idea) So I said picture or a video or just something… and obviously sex when you get home.

Here’s my dilemma or maybe I’m just overthinking

I feel She accommodated his timeframe for six months and it finally happened. when she got there he told her no to pictures or video.. which I respect a little bit.. but when she got home yesterday, she physically couldn’t handle it. Which is what really sucks. I feel like I gave everything and got nothing. To be totally honest, neither of us truly anticipated for him to be super thick.. and he wasn’t even rough.

Maybe I’m just overthinking. Maybe it’s nothing. I would appreciate input . Thank you.