I've been posting all weekend asking for advice and such on Reddit while having this conversation with my wife. And here's where we are.

I went away to work across the country, and my wife and I were chatting on Thursday night about sex. And via my therapist I was told that I needed to face my shame of my kink with my partner.

So I opened up.

I told her all about my hotwife fantasies.

It started out as me explaining my why. About how I want her to be able to experience new things that I can't give her (huge cocks, dominance, women, etc) and that I'd love to open our marriage on her side only.

Well she interpreted that as I was not interested in sex with her anymore. And why would I want to share her. And if she could get her emotional and sexual needs from someone else's why would she want to come home to me and tell me about it when she's already satisfied? And how much I would miss her sexual attention. Because she might not want to loop me into what happened.

So we talked more and more all weekend. I told her it's not about her emotional needs it's purely about sex. And that she wants to have way more sex, and I can't keep up then she's free too. And I find her so sexy that why would I not want to share her.

Again we fell down the rabbit hole where she said that she "couldn't be sure if she wouldn't get totally wrapped up in the other person. And not focus entirely sexually on me. And because we are sexually mismatched she might find someone with the same energy as herself, then what?"

So we talked more and more about how much I'd love for her to have a lover or three, where it was just sexual. And that she would still be satisfied by me and me her. Then something clicked and she said that the idea of my not being intimidated by her having sex with others because I know she likes my cock best is much sexier her in her mind then, "oh go have sex with others because I can't keep up"

Well that then ended up with me at the airport on a delayed flight. When all of a sudden a picture shows up on my phone.

Her on her side. Ass cheeks spread and a plug in her ass.

She's never done anal before. And she left me in read.

So when I got home at like 4am, I just ravenged her. Plug in, bent over cock just pistoning in and out hearing her moan and cum over and over. Just thinking about the desire to make her know how much I love her and how much she loves my cock.

We fucked 3x over the last 8 hours.

She said she still doesn't know why I find hotwifing attractive but she loves me.