So me an my Fiance have been together for 4 years. We have a great relationship and trust each other 100%. We also have a child together.

So i have been telling her about this fantasy for about two years. At first she said it will never happen but little by little she came out of her shell and tonight we had a little experience over the phone, and to my suprise i got really jealus, anxiety and could not sleep all night!

We have talked with a guy online who is absolutly a beast of a man.. Insane six pack, handsome, well spoken and respectfull to both of us. We added him on our snapchat(we have one in common)

I got her to finally send him a photo of her in lingerie, and thing took a crazy turn. Lets just say it ended with them extchanging snap and him jerking to her ridig her big dildo. She also sendt the snaps to me so i saw it all. She was really turnt on and liked him suprisingly much Also i where on the phone with her almost trough the entire thing! (Im working offshore)

We are supposed to meet this guy at a hotell, when he comes im leaving the room for them to fuck, while taking pics/video and sending me!

Also she is going on a girlstrip and i have given the greenlight to anything!

How can i deal with my emotions? I already told her my feelings and she is very reasuring, but still i cant get rid of the emotions! Do they fade as we get into the life style or is this not for me?

Nothing turns me on like the idea of my finace fucking another guy, but i was not even close to prepared for what happend last night.. fiction and reality is two different things.