Hi! Hopefully this is okay

My husband has been wanting me to be a hot wife for a while now. I’ve basically only ever been with him. A few years ago we hooked up with our (f) roommate together and LOVED it and we were suppose to hook up with our other (m) roommate that same night but my husband bailed out and I respected that he changed his mind. Fast forward to last year we had hooked up with the f roommate multiple times and we were going to hook up with the m roommate but I started my period while he was out visiting and I wasn’t comfortable with it. We got drunk in Vegas one weekend shortly after and met up with a m friend I found attractive and told my husband I might be down and my husband found out he was down so the three of us hooked up but this dude had a micro penis so that was a let down. I drunkenly got us to hook up with a new f friend and I was going to hook up with her and another guy this weekend while my husband was gone, it would be my first time without him, but got too drunk. I am not confident in my ability to flirt (I haven’t had to in like years) and while I don’t think I’m ugly, I don’t find myself very attractive, so that doesn’t help.

I’m really trying to get into this but it’s hard for me. My husband loves dirty talk and I feel awkward doing it.

Can anyone give me tips, pointers, stories, encouragement, whatever to try and help me gain confidence in all this? I’m down for someone I know and am COMFORTABLE with but I’m terrified of people

Thank you all 🖤