Just a rant and a bit of advice could help I guess

I’m sure many of you are in the same position, they want to see their girlfriend/wife get fucked well and hard and have their needs met.

My girl and I are both in agreement that this hotwife thing is really hot, she has no problem expressing how there’s other men that would probably fuck her into oblivion, and would love to tell me about it. We talk about it ALL the time, we role play, she’ll show me guys she thinks are hot, etc… Yet, we’re still unsure if it’s smart to dive headfirst into this

My girlfriend (we’re getting to the point of engagement), is also very attractive, has done lingerie/swimsuit modeling and does fashion advertising on social media, so for her there is a lot more pressure. She obviously also loves me, and no matter how much she wishes a guy she thinks is really hot could fuck her, even if he’s way better than me in bed, she still loves me most.

There are times where’s she’s gotten close to begging me to fuck a guy but then was unsure, knowing that I’d very much give the “ok” since I don’t have much self control, it’s up to her. So she’s very back and forth with it as well.

I just hate the risk that is involved in this, how easy it is to “fly too close to the sun”. Anyone else have these thoughts or inner struggles regarding this lifestyle?