single bull, 29, black, 6’3, athletic build

i’ve been in the bull lifestyle almost two years.

almost all of my encounters start VERY WELL but they all tend to end the same way.

the couples will hit me up every other weekend or so and things are going great. i’ll get invited to family events and even work parties. at some point it becomes very nonchalant to the point where i’m called over to perform, then it turns out it was a one sided decision in a marriage. as soon as it becomes slightly rocky in the marriage i lose all contact from the couple.

i want to as transparent as possible and don’t want to cause trouble in marriages, but lately i feel extremely guilty as i’ve performed for married women out the husbands knowledge. how can i do better and make this right