We were having sex earlier tonight and for a while now we’ve been wanting to try fucking raw. I admit that the idea turned me on, but at the same time I don’t feel comfortable cumming inside her. She reassured me that she’s on the pill and that there’s nothing to worry about, but I had partner get an abortion in the past and it really took a toll on me mentally (not saying I’m pro life, I respect a woman’s right to choose but it just messed with my psyche).

We ended up agreeing on a compromise; I would go in raw and then pull out on shoot my load on her. Well needless to say, but that didn’t happen.

The evening started off really well. We met at a hotel downtown and grabbed a couple drinks at the bar and enjoyed seeing people stare at her plunging neck line. Eventually we made our way upstairs and set up a FaceTime call with hubby to make sure he was into it.

After taking care of the logistics we eventually got to business. She started off really submissive and got down on her knees to service me. Looking up at me with her naturally beautiful eyes, accentuated by her makeup and fake lashes. She gagged a bit and forced me to the back of her throat in the ultimate act of submission.

Once the sex started, everything changed. She had ended our FaceTime call and insisted that she ride me to start. I agreed, but she eventually did so to completion. When I told her that I was about to cum she pressed down on my chest with both hands and wrapped her ankles around my thighs. She then leant forward and whispered in my ear “I need to feel you inside me” and that’s when I came. I didn’t mean to do so, but I just got s aroused.

She could tell that this upset me and that I felt violated, but she did her best to console me. The rest of our evening together ended up being far intimate and even spent part of the night talking things through.

I’m not sure how to feel or what to do