I'm 30F and I'm a little upset about the way our story ended.

In the last few years we have been gradually moving into a new way of living our sexuality after having remained exclusive to each other since start.

We have experienced so many beautiful things together but being curious, we wanted to open our minds and we got into a kind of open relationship. So I started dating other men, with my boyfriend's consent, and he was free to do the same with girls.

But actually he never found the guts or the opportunity to do so, and I ended up being the only one having sex outside of our relationship, and he would get off when I told him everything I was doing.

But the sad thing is that over time my interest in my boyfriend has faded, and my interest in others has increased like A LOT. He is the one who pushed me to do it and I couldn't go back.

He then started to get jealous and would get angry at me every time I went out or came home late.

That's why even though I have always loved him very much I think today I can't imagine our future together anymore... And the truth is that, with or without him, I still want and need to live this sexually free life for a while.