This is a mindset that I've had on a few things, but theres two really big examples that have quite differing mindsets to them, (and both have been rebought to my attention recently) so I'll just focus on those two.

For starters; Elden Ring. The only thing I know about Elden Ring is that it is a game that it is near perfect. And it's for that exact reason I don't want to play it. It's such a sacrosanct game at this point I practically don't feel worthy of doing so.

The mindset I always have when thinking about that game basically goes like this;

"This game is too perfect to be made for me. It was made for people that are going to appreciate it more; hardcore fans and big-name streamers that are going to give this game the audience it deserves.

I am neither of those; I am a very, very, VERY flawed nobody. It would basically be sacrilegious of me to have anything at all to do with such perfection, I'd basically be disrespecting everyone else that deserves to play the game to even try"

Now it's not always the case that I feel unworthy because something is successful.

The other side of the coin of Elden Ring is Arcane. Again, this is a show that by all acounts is practically flawless, but in this case I can't watch it because of anger, not respect.

The thought process in this line of thinking is "Of course the first ever successful video game adaptation would be of League of Legends, a game I'm already jealous of and have no skill at playing. Couldn't be a game or franchise I actually enjoy, it had to be from Riot, and it had to use those actors. I'm not going to be able to watch that show without seething in rage that this, of all things, is the one that gets to be successful first."

I do remember I've tried "flawless" things before, but the last time I did that I think was with the original Last of Us. (Ironically: that legit became one of my most hated games of all time because Ellie is my most hated character in any video game ever...)

But ever since then, I've practically refused, and it's always for one of those two reasons; either feeling worthless at something I acknowledge is worthy or anger at what I feel is undeserved quality.

I don't even know where to begin fixing these issues. I'm hoping at least someone here does.