Long story short, I have been kind of stressed with work and other things. I had calmed down my mind just a bit , but then when I talked to my mom we got into a fight as I tried to explain how I felt and she turned it on me. I was telling her how I could feel a certain way and she flipped it on me. I also owe her money so that does not help.

What is weird is I have spells where I disassociate, and I did this around a coworker I had liked, but fizzled out, but we still were friendly. It was the first time this happened. Up until I argued with my mom I was doing good, but now the "I need someone" thing popped up, despite focusing from now on getting into an MBA/JD program. I think I seek the approval of my mom too much and then I try to seek that out with women as a result. I try to focus on my goals but sometimes this dominating thought pops up that mirrors my mom: anti intellectual somewhat grounded but bound to emotions, and feels like she is from a different planet sometimes. I see that in other women and I want to stop thinking this. When I can enjoy myself I have noticed women coming up to me randomly and genuinely seem interested. Does anyone else kinda deal with something similar?