Hey all,

I grew in a terrible household. I'm not going to go into the extra details, but I want to discuss the living conditions I had. We had loads of animals all over the place, shit tons of garbage, full trash bags, clutter, and useless stuff just lying around all over the place. It was pretty close to the literal implications of a neglectful household. I remember we had a large hamper that was just full socks that we couldn't find a match too haha. My room was particularly bad since we had a small dog that would only pee and poop in my room and I can't really remember a time when I picked it up. To get into bed I would often have to walk on hard/fresh dog poop and fresh dog pee just to lay down. All of this was going on when I was 5 - 10ish. So it's gotten ingrained into me. When I ended up moving to a better home at 10 I never really had to clean up my grandmother would do it all for me and I still judge myself for it to this day.

Anyways, now that I am an adult living on my own with a somewhat recent ADHD diagnosis, at first I did pretty good at staying picked up, once a week I would wash clothes, sweep up, pick up my kitchen, the whole nine yards. But, after a while I started to feel aggravation of having to do it all routinely, to the point where I kind of just stopped... I send this now with 6 full trash bags sitting next to the front door and fruit flies all over the place. I want my home to be a sanctuary of peace and right now it feels far from it. It is possible too I may be conflating my childhood experience with my current state of affairs too much. So I'm asking does anyone have any advice for getting over this overwhelming situation? Even simple ADHD strategies would be a blessing.