And I am not talking about the movie :) . I am kind of in a weird spot in my relationship not knowing whether it will end or whether we will continue (kind of in a standoff after they said something hurtful). But I have noticed when I end relationships, a familiar desire to go off the beaten path (Afghanistan, Somalia, Venezuela, etc.) and to go to hedonistic places and be a hedonist. Some might be able to resolve this with a night out with the boys, but I feel like challenging myself as I have lived a straight laced life relatively, and I get a desire to go 170, but instead of partying or something like that, I want to push myself into chaos (by many people's definition) and out of my comfort zone. Does anyone else ever have similar feelings?