So, the ocean of thoughts have been real sus lately by being super quiet. And I noticed I didn't care to label my emotions. When I did label what I was feeling or whatever these sensations are in my body, I would actually experience what I labelled them. Like, this sensation is loneliness, and I react near instantaneously by trying to connect with someone. It's sadness, so I react like something must be wrong and I gotta fix it.

The mind got even more tired and just went: screw labeling this crud. And wouldn't you know, there's just the experience of sensation/emotion. What does this emotion mean? It doesn't seem to matter anymore. It's not actually telling me anything about reality other than it's here. Almost like spending time with a buddy with no agenda. Kinda happy even when I'm not happy. Lots of smiles about not trying to coerce experience. Just kinda peaceful.

The only time I feel like labelling my emotions is if someone wants to talk to me and asks how I'm feeling, yet, even then, I know what I say has no real weight compared to just experiencing it since I almost feel like I'm feeling things I don't have the words for. I never knew I could feel such things, but oh man is the human experience quite vaster than what I thought it is.