I'm glad I can finally give it a word (rejection sensitivity). For the past month or so I have been battling a lot of stress and tense situations between me and my parents. On top of that, I've been on a rollercoaster of emotions of dating.

I have been dating off and on since August, I met someone amazing in December who asked me out on all of our dates (that has never happened before), she broke it off in January and my world fell apart (because it was my first time with another woman who wasn't bat-shit crazy). Then I met someone else who was super insecure. We only went on one date and she threw me under the bus for complicating her life with dating. Then the woman that I dated in December said she got back with her ex, but it was (and still is) complicated. Now I'm chatting with someone else for almost a month who said multiple times she would love to meet me in real life, but her weekends were already packed.

This is the weekend that she finally has some time and I feel like it's now or never, we're scraping the barrel to get a conversation going because she works long hours and I try to give her as much space as she needs.

I work in IT and I'm online and available almost 18 hours a day. I haven't heard anything from her for the past 24 hours, not even her usual good morning or good night and like I said, the past 3 conversations weren't very long but she did occasionally "heart" my messages.

My arms hurt, my fingers are as cold as ice and I feel sick in my stomach, I absolutely hate this.

I turned off my phone notifications and closed all chats in my browser, but I'm still checking my lock screen every 5 minutes in the hopes she sent me something and every 10 minutes to check if she might have blocked me.

I'm going down a path of absolute panic and I don't know how to even start accessing my thoughts and feelings.