Ever since my HA started and I became super focused on my breathing I became paranoid about anything potentially making it worse. I get shortness of breath just by thinking about it at all, and when I eat something I haven't eaten for a while I get worried about a random allergic reaction so I focus on my breathing and get the symptoms again. I just drank some apple juice (haven't had it for a month or so), so of course my head went there. Or sometimes people offer me to try their cooking and I do it to not seem weird but then spend an hour freaking out about it.

Same thing happens with beauty products. I have acne and I still don't fully trust the creams I use to treat it. I bought a new brand of hair conditioner and I just know trying it for the first time will be bad for me.

Why am I like this? Why can't I drink a glass of juice without panicking over it.