I'm just looking for people who have this too, or those who had it but somehow managed to overcome this as advice would be much appreciated.

I was doing so much better for two full weeks, had zero of my usual symptoms. Then I took a very small dose of benzo because my therapist suggested I take it to help fix my sleep schedule. Literally the second I swallowed the pill I had a severe panic attack. My worst symptom - air hunger - came back and I though I actually couldn't breathe at all. I was shaking and I felt paranoid that I would have an allergic reaction and kept checking my throat every ten minutes. It was hell. And it lasted at least an hour before the worst of the panic subsided. Even then I still felt very panicky for the rest of the night, and two days later I'm still having shortness of breath (this is the chronic symptom I had before).

Before this I was thinking about starting Zoloft but this made me realize just how severe my fear of medication is. I don't think I could handle an antidepressant, I don't know if I can even handle benzo again.

My anxiety is working in such a way that I literally can't take anxiety medication without it making me much, much worse. So what am I even supposed to do with myself?